I know that in a previous post I touched on the fact that I have always dreamed of being an author. I have always loved writing, and I have always hoped one day I could have a published book out in the world. Even at a young age I wanted it. I felt I had so many ideas in my mind that I just HAD to share with people. Even if it wasn’t my full-time job I hoped I could at least be able to say I achieved my goal.
My curse for wanting to be an author is that I had so many ideas that I could never determine which one to go with. I’d always write down a 3-5 page description of what I thought could be a cool and fun book, but I could never get myself to come back to it. The writing folder on my computer is plagued by so many different ideas that I will probably never come back to, and I have notebooks completely full of random story ideas I had. I keep them all just in case I do think I could spin it into a great idea. But I have never gone farther than writing down a short premise. Not even an outline, just a quick idea for an outline.
I created several character charts, I created an in depth outline, and even started creating the setting chart for my story. It was a science-fiction, which surprised me because I don’t read a huge amount of it, but I was going with it. It was the most planning I have ever done for a story. I knew all the plot twists, and the heart wrenching aspects. I even had a super intense and sad romance thread in it. I was so excited to get started. I opened up my computer, and went into word to begin writing it. I got about 2,000 words into when I realized the narration felt forced. I had planned everything, but I couldn’t find a way that made the story feel analytical, but yet not detached. I worked on it for days, until I decided to take a break from the idea.
I thought a few days away would give me the time I needed to be able to come back at it full force. I did after all do a huge amount of work on it. But instead, I found myself reading all the ideas I had for other stories. Just to get an idea of how much my thought process has changed.
That’s when I stumbled on a story idea that I had fleshed out way more than I expected. It was a full first chapter of a story. I didn’t have an outline, or an idea of a plot. Just a random name that I used to like a lot–Cassidy. But I started reading it and was so surprised.
I wrote it over two years ago, but I think it was some of the best writing I had even done. It’s from a time where I was creatively writing everyday, and that practice showed. But the potential for a story was amazing. I could easily twist it into a dystopian, or a fantasy. Both are genres I like a lot, and I know dystopian is over used anymore, I still think it’s fun to write. So I randomly started working on that rather than my other book, which is probably good. I’m having a lot of fun writing it, and still definitely think I’ll go back to the science-fiction.
But it’s also weird. Everyone that has finished novels say the way to write and make sure it all makes sense is to have a detailed encyclopedia that has any and all information you can think of. To have design boards on Pinterest, and music playlists made. That you need to have a minimum of 30 characters, so that when you inevitably delete some, you still have the standard 20. But I haven’t done that. I made a character chart for the main character and that’s it. No one else. I don’t even have a name for the places she will go. But I have her name and all of her family’s names and meanings. And I’m just going. I edited the parts I had previously, and am now writing more. I have been writing it on and off for four days now, and I have a little under 8,000 words and I’m so proud.
Even if no one else knows about this story, even if it never gets published, even if no one else ever even reads it I’m so proud of myself.
I’m proud for finally buckling down and trying to actually write. I’m proud that I’m actually going to try to make my dreams happen. I know I will have little to no time to write as soon as this semester picks back up, but as long as I write a page a month even I’ll be happy. Because 8,000 words is the most I have ever written on one single story, that isn’t an analytical school paper.
I have a general idea of what I want for the plot, and have name meanings picked out, I just need to flesh out the names of the places, and the magic system. I have an idea for the magic system, I just need to find a way to describe it.
I’m so excited, and I guess I picked a good time, because almost everybody I follow on YouTube is trying to write a book, and even though I seem to be doing it wrong, it’s fun to watch their progress and encourages me to do it too.
I made writing one of my New Year’s resolutions, and I hope to stick to it, and maybe actually finish my book this year, possibly. I have no clue how long it’ll be, because I you know, have never written a book before. But so far with my 8,000 words, I’m at 23 pages, and that’s only the first two chapters. So I’m excited to see how much I write.
Also, I hope to give a few updates every once in a while as to how I’m doing with writing, and maybe even some more information on my book itself.
If you want to read them let me know, but I’ll probably do it anyway.
Also, let me know if you have any suggestions, or ideas for writing. I love hearing it all.